Connor over at WorshipCity made this post and I thought I would join in on the fun. I have two screens at work so here is what is on both of them.
The Two things I miss most when I’m at work. My Wife and Krypton.
As an added element to the post here is my current iPhone wallpaper.
I don’t read! Don’t get me wrong I love to read but for some reason it’s easier to pick up the remote or the guitar (mostly the remote), than a book. However once the guilt of not being a well balanced individual overcomes me, I will pick up a book and if it’s a good one, I don’t put it down. This particular book is somewhat special to me however. After two years of watching this book unfold I finally got my mitts on it last night. It was such a cool process to get to know the author, read her blog everyday and watch the book come together. Us faithful blog readers even got to vote on what cover would be used for the book. This was a really unique experience. Truth be told this book could not have come at a more perfect time. As a christian who is only 27 and has already experienced 3 church splits and numerous church squabbles, this book has really spoke to my heart. It’s also perfect timing, as I start my journey as a worship leader. It’s filled with stories that take you through a wide range of emotions. One minute you’re laughing, the next you’re yelling at the people in the book like they slapped your momma. There is also a lot of good advice on how to deal with burnout…one of the number one killers of Christians, especially in leadership rolls. This book has already started to heal old wounds and has given me some insight on how to prevent burnout in my first ever leadership roll. This book is fantastic and I can’t wait to read more…
But as the great LeVar Burton always use to say “You don’t have to take my word for it!”
I couldn’t title this post any better. I have to say I have never felt so covered in prayer in one week in my entire 27 years of life. I can not thank all of you enough for praying for my team this week. I recieved countless emails, comments, wall posts, tweets, and messages from friends who were told to tell me that they were praying for me. I am still just blown away by this little blog community. The love that you have shown through all your kind words and prayers have really humbled me….literally brought me to my knees….THANK YOU!
With that said on to my first Worship text confessional.
I’ll start this off by saying the odds were stacked against me last week. I recieved a call Monday night asking if it were possible for me to lead worship. With a little hesitation and shock, I agreed. Without going into any details the worship team as a whole has been going through a lot of changes and struggles as of late. The future was very uncertain. I was very afraid. I set up Thursday as our rehearsal. Jay our drummer (and my rock throughout this whole ordeal) set the pieces of the team in place. Everyone was on board, but I still needed to make sure my Aunt Jill (our Bass player) would be able to rehearse Thursday instead of our usual Wednesday slot. Called her a few times and couldn’t get a hold of her. Wednesday night comes and I receive a call from my Aunt Jill and she informs me that she was stepping down from the worship team and that she as well as the rest of her family are being called away from our church. She also told me that she wasn’t sure if she was going to play Bass for me on Sunday. This was a HUGE blow. She has played suck an enormous roll in my development as a musician, a leader, and a person. It was like someone had cut off one of my arms. I wanted to curl up into a little ball and just quit. After talking with her a while she said that she would get back to me on whether or not she would be there for rehearsal on Thursday. Being the best Aunt in the world that she is, she left me a message on Thursday, that she would support me and be there at rehearsal and play on Sunday.. So the team was set!
Rehearsal on Thursday went really really well I have to say.We even finished a little early.
After a pretty sleepless night on Saturday, Sunday morning came quickly. Got to church, set up my gear and started sound check/rehearsal. In my opinion it was bad! Not the people on the team….just me! I was really not use to singing first thing in the morning. My throat was dry and had a lot of gunk in it. I was tripping up on lyrics. I couldn’t hear myself. My guitar playing was spotty. Just bad. I was not doing well at all. After sound check we have a meeting with all the people involved in the service. We take communion and pray for one another. I prayed A LOT during this time.
So I walk out on stage getting ready to start worship and who do I see in the front row sitting with my wife, but my in-laws! They have never been to our church……I LOST IT! I walked off stage and just broke down. My loving wife knowing how I would react, found me backstage sobbing like a little girl with a skinned knee. She pulled me back together and I walked back out on stage and grabbed my guitar.
We started off with the LIVE in Austin version of Forever. I read from Psalm 136. I used this to warm up the congregation and get them to participate in the song. It really touched my heart, I’ve never heard them sing that loud before. By the time we got to the second chorus I was unconscious. I was completely calm. From that we transitioned into Blessed Be Your Name quite nicely considering we played it in a different key. How He Loves Us set up communion. I wasn’t sure how well this was going to work, but it actually turned out really great. Conner, you were right, it’s so much easier to have someone else play the lead part. While communion was being served I came back in softly on the acoustic with How He Loves Us. From there we started Marvelous Light. I really really love doing this song. There is something about it. This was the last song before the lesson. The hard part was over. The last song was for our ministry time was Storm by Lifehouse. I’ve probably played this song solo for ministry time at least 5 or 6 times. I was in the clear. Our sound guy added in an echo to my voice which was AWESOME! Could really be over used, but it was perfect for that song. Really closed things out perfectly.
So that’s it. My first Sunday as a worship leader. I would appreciate it if all of you would keep praying for me and the rest of the team. It looks like I will be leading worship for the next month or so. I will be hitting you other worship leaders up for resources and advice. Please if you are a worship leader please leave feed back in the comments as well as advice. Also shoot me an email or a tweet with anything that you think would help. I have to say thank you again to all of you who lifted us up in prayer on Sunday. Your prayers were felt and as far as I’m concerned they were answered beyond a shadow of a doubt.